At times I sit around my house, after cleaning, cooking, and doing a bit of binge watching a favorite series. This weekend it was Mayans M.C. and I just got hooked. After it was all said and done, I sat here wondering why I don’t have special one, or at the very least allow a special someone in my life. Am I so stuck in my ways that I don’t need anyone? As my kids become adults, I realize that they are starting their own families and when they aren’t around, I will be alone. Can I survive alone? Can I create happiness alone? Do I need to let my guard down and start to be more willing to let others into my life?
My generation has been endowed with more women that men, thus creating a shortage of men that will be available, faithful, and basically my type. After I find that pool of eligible bachelors, I then must look at the fact that most of them believe it is important to have a woman that is younger than them by at least half their age. It isn’t that I haven’t been approached by someone younger, I just want someone in the age bracket of no more than 4-5 years either direction. I don’t want to date someone my kids age.
Happy by myself for no or ever will be determined who comes into my life. I was raised to move from place to place, as my dad was an Airforce Pilot. I have found being close to any, friends, a lover, or some family was easy to move away from and not bat a second eye. Then there are some who I spend time away from but still have in my life. Outside of my children I never had family or friends that I had to talk to daily. I think it would be great to have some folks to talk to, text, hand out with, email or even the old fashion mail. I think I can do that, but I never actually follow through. Funny how things on the other side seems so much better, as the adage goes, the grass isn’t always greener on the other side.
For those that need to always be around someone, I do know people that need this ever need for human interaction. People I know would rather been with another even if they are unhappy. I have some friends that need to be in relationships that they will go from one to another because they feel lost or depressed without. Am I in agreement? I don’t understand this, but it doesn’t mean it is wrong. I think they will have a better chance on living longer, if these are healthy relationships.
I guess after all of this, I am happy, for the most part, being alone, however, I think I can be just as happy with another. I will try to stay in contact with family and friends, but my dogs and kids do take my time away from picking up the phone. Hmmm, that could just be an excuse, but I live by it. How about the rest of you?